“I would always look up to these people getting “words from God” and wished that I could have this special relationship with Him as they did. I desired it – so why wasn’t God speaking to me the way He spoke to them?”
Chrissy has allowed me to include her story in this series about a movement called the New Apostolic Reformation, or NAR for short. In this series, I want to take readers beyond the textbook What is the New Apostolic Reformation Movement explanation, into the personal experiences from those who have been there, and what happened when God opened their eyes to the truth.
This is Chrissy’s story in her own words:
I grew up in a Christian home. We attended a Vineyard church, which was very charismatic, and became influenced by the “Toronto Blessing/Revival.” I witnessed people in church services experiencing “holy laughter,” falling over when being prayed for, and random people sharing “prophecies” and visions over the mic.
This theology started to break down for me after I went through a training school (called Discipleship Training School) at YWAM (Youth With A Mission). I went there absolutely sure that God had called me there specifically to do a missions trip to India. Boy was I surprised when India was not even an option! I was so confused. How could I have heard God wrong? I was so sure.
There was also a reliance on emotional experiences, and seeking God to get a “word” from Him. I stuck it out through the entire five months, and came back home feeling even more lost than ever. I had no direction from God where my life was supposed to go, and it was really important to me to hear a definitive word from God – which I believe was due to my church upbringing. I felt like God had abandoned me, and I didn’t understand why.
During this time, my parents were splitting up. I felt even more abandoned by God, and lonely. I wasn’t hearing Him or feeling Him in the ways that I was used to, and I didn’t understand why. I became very angry at God, and began to reject my label of “Christian.” I believe God used the trauma of my parents’ divorce to reveal the bad teaching I had been fed for so long. That theology just doesn’t work during real life suffering. The foundation of my faith was largely emotional, and in my darker moments, I had trouble believing God was good – or even there at all. I was constantly relying on experience to dictate truth, which is never a wise thing to base your theology on! I think if you had asked me then if this was what I was doing, I would have denied it, but in hindsight, I see it more clearly.
I kept going to church, because that’s where I felt safe. But I was drawn to more charismatic (read: NAR) churches. For a while, I attended a church where the pastor invited Todd Bentley to speak. This was before his affair, but they invited him to speak even after the affair, which I thought was a huge red flag. In that church, I also heard teaching that involved “commanding your angels” to do things for you – mostly to help you with your finances, or physical health.
After that church, by the grace of God, I started attending one that preached the Bible exegetically. I had a light bulb moment – in all of my years growing up in church, I had never heard it be taught that the entire Bible is all about JESUS! I would always read myself into the text to seek what God was “speaking” to me personally. It has been so relieving to sit under good, biblical doctrine, and actually very freeing to not feel like I am constantly needing to search for a direct revelation from God for direction for my life. I’ve also been thankful for Fighting For The Faith (which I stumbled upon sort of by accident) in helping to discern bad teaching. My husband and I describe the sermon reviews as “Mystery Science Theater for sermons.”
Author’s Note: You can read the entire series of NAR testimonies here. If you would like to send me your story about your NAR church experience and what happened when your eyes were opened, you can email me here. I will be changing your first name to keep you anonymous.
An interesting recurring theme I see here is that so many who have come out of NAR churches have begun learning discernment by listening to Chris Rosebrough’s sermon reviews on the Fighting for the Faith website (plus going to a good Bible teaching church of course 😉
… such a great resource. It’s a shame that not enough people are interested in true discernment these days, but get precious when their ‘beloved’ false teachers are called out for what they are.
I have read alll of the stories of being freed from the NAR. My story of being set free from the word of faith movement is very similar. Much of what I see in the NAR I saw 10-15 years ago in the word of faith. I am so thankful my eyes were opened and I was set free. I am very cautious about trusting any pastor or church now I don’t want to be fooled again.
I lean on God’s written word more than ever
Bob, would you say NAR is based on word of faith teaching? That is the impression I have.